Yet another day when my optimism is thrown in the rubbish bin. A long awaited news turning unfavourable is just enough to hit my spirits low. Although my spirit is running out of fuel, something is telling me I should not regret anything as nothing is decided by me. The supernatural power wants me to know its presence and the events to follow.
How many times in my life have I felt like a puppet uncontrolled by the self? I am just tired to struggle with this life. It will be so much easy if I can find an end at the beginning. I don't see a point in this boring routine living as each day is much the same.
What ever is new and exciting at the start eventually turns to be a done and dusted thing. There is no more to explore unless I fight to see a tiny challenge and make it bigger. I feel that all the life events will eventually become insignificant that unless a huge amount of emotion is pumped in they would mean nothing to a person. That stage of numbness is achieved by everyone, so I am not an exclusion.
Today I learnt a lesson- the lesson being I am not special -just an ordinary or infra ordinary person. I learnt that it is not easy to be an infra ordinary person. The brain has to function in a certain fashion to become that person.
Does today's blog sound a bit petulant? I can be bit childish sometimes........
How many times in my life have I felt like a puppet uncontrolled by the self? I am just tired to struggle with this life. It will be so much easy if I can find an end at the beginning. I don't see a point in this boring routine living as each day is much the same.
What ever is new and exciting at the start eventually turns to be a done and dusted thing. There is no more to explore unless I fight to see a tiny challenge and make it bigger. I feel that all the life events will eventually become insignificant that unless a huge amount of emotion is pumped in they would mean nothing to a person. That stage of numbness is achieved by everyone, so I am not an exclusion.
Today I learnt a lesson- the lesson being I am not special -just an ordinary or infra ordinary person. I learnt that it is not easy to be an infra ordinary person. The brain has to function in a certain fashion to become that person.
Does today's blog sound a bit petulant? I can be bit childish sometimes........
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