I never knew that life can be this challenging and uncertain. There is so much planning to do every morning and I can not stop my planning even for a single minute. The irony of all this planning is the fact that I can not plan for the uncertainty behind the veil of time.
Day to day life has been very very stressful for me in the last couple of months. Today is my first day of my 10 days vacation and I could not relax because it is a strange feeling to even try and relax.
Little did I know that writing a blog even from a mobile in the middle of the night covering my head under the blanket can relax me immediately. It is making me happy and peaceful. I sometimes write my heart; sometimes my mind.
Someone drove me home from a garage and he asked me today what I want to do if I were not doing the job that I am doing now. I immediately said I want to be a writer. How of this utterance is true I don't know. I don't want to write to earn money, I don't want to write to become famous, I just want to write for the sheer joy of writing. There are millions of good souls out there who have the passion for writing. I doubt my passion because I positively hate being passionate about anything in life because I have the fear of falling for it. I do make drastic decisions to stay away from things I love for the same fear.
If I conquered my fear I will go to the top, but I respect my fear which helps me to keep the balance right.
Day to day life has been very very stressful for me in the last couple of months. Today is my first day of my 10 days vacation and I could not relax because it is a strange feeling to even try and relax.
Little did I know that writing a blog even from a mobile in the middle of the night covering my head under the blanket can relax me immediately. It is making me happy and peaceful. I sometimes write my heart; sometimes my mind.
Someone drove me home from a garage and he asked me today what I want to do if I were not doing the job that I am doing now. I immediately said I want to be a writer. How of this utterance is true I don't know. I don't want to write to earn money, I don't want to write to become famous, I just want to write for the sheer joy of writing. There are millions of good souls out there who have the passion for writing. I doubt my passion because I positively hate being passionate about anything in life because I have the fear of falling for it. I do make drastic decisions to stay away from things I love for the same fear.
If I conquered my fear I will go to the top, but I respect my fear which helps me to keep the balance right.
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