I did not have a very good night sleep yesterday. I kept looking at the watch and just like that lost 1 hour!! Yes, the day light saving time.... and the clock went ahead by one hour. After a long struggle, I did manage to sleep.
It felt damn good next morning when I woke up to see my son holding the breakfast tray for me and saying 'Happy Mother's day Amma''!! Wow!! My son brought me breakfast, three handmade cute cards, some flowers and a great mother's day batch. The card read 'Best Mum'!! Such a surprise for me!! Although I smiled and thanked my son, I felt bit sad. I felt I did not deserve any of this.I am some one who probably gets sad when too much affection is showered on me. It is my own fault that I worry that I may lose the affection in the future. It is my fear of loss that prevents me from expressing my emotions.
Where there is attachment, misery follows and the emotional baggage gets heavy and heavy.
I wonder if I will discuss any of this in the future to my son....the road to escapism from misery is called the Non-attachment!
It felt damn good next morning when I woke up to see my son holding the breakfast tray for me and saying 'Happy Mother's day Amma''!! Wow!! My son brought me breakfast, three handmade cute cards, some flowers and a great mother's day batch. The card read 'Best Mum'!! Such a surprise for me!! Although I smiled and thanked my son, I felt bit sad. I felt I did not deserve any of this.I am some one who probably gets sad when too much affection is showered on me. It is my own fault that I worry that I may lose the affection in the future. It is my fear of loss that prevents me from expressing my emotions.
Where there is attachment, misery follows and the emotional baggage gets heavy and heavy.
I wonder if I will discuss any of this in the future to my son....the road to escapism from misery is called the Non-attachment!
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